on losing the inspiration of music itself...

so tonight was the last night of the gpn conference at my church that ive been singing in for 3 nights in a row. afterwards, we were all asked to come to one of the portables so that the music director could speak to the choir members and the orchestra. he read us a short note in a raspy voice from a piece of paper and shaking hands - he has decided to resign. i remember about half the choir joined bc he brought such a new style to our music ministry... but a good deal left when he became the music director, bc his ethnic background made his "musical flavor" a great deal different from our previous music pastor. but he brought our music and praise and worship on sunday mornings to a whole new level. everyone in the room was crying, bc nobody expected it. ppl had ridiculed him for changing the way things were run when he was first hired, and it broke his spirit in a way. he didnt feel he had the ideals to continue as a leader with such accusations against him. ppl like that make me sick. they dont realize that church is about God and not just making an appearance and criticizing someone who's different from u. its especially embarassing to have such ppl in the congregation of my church, their actions make me ashamed to call them church members. their righteous facades only cover so deep, and then it becomes obvious to everyone where their true loyalties lie... with their own self-interest. he cried over what they had said and done to him, and as a result, he had almost every person in the room balling with him. he had to leave the room immediately after breaking the news. the pastor got up to speak to us, and he started crying too. i cant imagine the pressure thatll be on him now, to find a leader worthy of filling pastor jermaines shoes. he was the inspiration of music itself, and he didnt deserve what was served him. i just hope itll be possible to find a pastor who can bring the same kind of intensity and happiness to our choir. with his departure from our church, the poland trip (which he was responsible for planning and executing) has been officially cancelled - and strangely enough, it happened the night after i had finally saved exactly $1,500 to go. ive heard that God works in mysterious ways, but sometimes i just wish Hed give me a clue as to y things like this have to happen. im not complaining, just feeling let down and discouraged. ill miss him so much, and i know that no one will ever be able to take his place, but at the same time, i want him to do what he feels is best for him. good luck pastor jermaine...